that mean you have to add me to your friend list to read about me o.o''

I'm starting to roleplay again with my boyfriend ^.^

Today i was at 128lbs instead of 132lbs it feels nice even tough I need to lose more weight before i can feel good.....

.....<.< words just CAN'T describe my mental self..... I didn't get paid even tough my boss told me i would be today......<.< I feel this urge inside my head....I'M GONNA KILL THEM AND GO FIND ANOTHER JOB!!!! FUCK THEM! they just lost a good girl. No really I was almost as good as the other girls that worked there for like 6months! fuck it all!

I'll go in a bar as a waitress or my go in a strip club =P I just hate all those stupid day job that make you work all day with a small pretty tiny break....And I'm like standing during 8hours non-stop dealing with some stupid immature guys or people who are just ''looking'' around the store or people who literally say to me ''I don't need you stop following me woosh woosh move!bitch'' HEY I'M PAID TO FOLLOW YOU SO STFU!!!

damn.....also my boyfriend can't come to mtl this week because his lift had another dumb reason at the last minute AGAIN!!!! ><

<.< When girls get fucked every days they become real slut/bitches/annoying stupid creature.... One of my ex best friend like just yelled at me for things and all ..saying i was a bitch hypocrite and many random stuff....I was saying If it wasn't of me she wouldn't have her boyfriend(who's really a nice guy) and she'd be dead! and god ... She say he did more for her then  I ever did in 4 years.....>< it's really frustrating.....

anyway bitch mode off

Happeh kitty mode on

I got a job in a Lingerie boutique =D

Still haven't finished my kimono...why?because hand sewing is long...I'm finally getting my sewing machine today =D

Oh yeah..I'm moving...AGAIN! And I really need help T_T any kind of help....

yes tomorrow I hope it'll be a good day since I'm planning to take soem outdoor photos -^^-they will be muchly casual o.o since I can't get a lot of my clothes at my mom's house...<.<

okay <.< need to post something! I feel like I'm being watch by someone even tough they're nobody in my room... I'm surprised to see how much I look ugly when I don't wear some girls clothes and don't brush my hair and wear some make-up...lol I look so manly XD

I'm dying of shame....lol dont ask why -^^- oh my mother's boss told me I lost some weight and I got taller! good news for me ^^

can't finish my samourai outfit...i lost my needles lol

Gankutsuou is sexy! that anime also is really cool lol The count remind me of one of my char XD but with shorter hair and some kind of pinch lol XD

I'm loosing my french again<.< my mom told me to practice it more...hey it's not my fault if i don't speak in french anymore!

<.< I'm being an ass with my scanner lately...

I'm currently making a kimono and a Hakama to roleplay a samourai girl who want to follow the way of the monks. Currently have no idea for her name and currently hand sewing the costume =3

so what do you think? not to bad nor too good =_= god I suck at doing the encoding ....too many years have passed since my last website XD lol i'm getting rusty...

hehehehe someone ask me to draw guro =3 here' s the final XD

Was bored and decided to make a special shoot for a friend ^_~ here are all of my favs on over a hundred pics I took XD

well yeah I made a fanart of Naughty kitty kitty mascot!! weeh..okay my scanner killed the poor lineart and i had trouble coloring it soooo.....I hope she still like it!!!

here are some pictures I love that I did today while I was bored lol with the crappy light of my bf room XD

I still can't find my tablet so it's kinda hard to color something with a mouse >< like my last submission...was all made by mouse for the coloration errf!!!



My tablet was kinda dead and had some bugs from times but at least it's easier to color with a pen then a big ugly mouse on a mattress XD lol

eeeh I wish I could have a new one...=_='' if it wasn't of girl's hygiene I would had the money to buy a new one but I spend like over 120$ in not even 2weeks and it was all i had until i found a new job ....wish i haven't found yet... and won't be able to find until the end of the month ><

7years of faithful service until it died because of my sister who put it somewhere where my tablet half melted .....=_='' yup my tablet is half burned/melted XD lol and my tablet pen is still alive because of some duck tape.....=_=''


awww really hope I'll be able to afford a new one soon...or I won't be able to draw anymore X_x eeeek damnit! I would give anything for one >< ; ;

don't worry be happy...<.<listen to the wise man!

Listen up to Bob Marley every time you feel down or stress or any time you just feel up to...

Listen to the lyrics and calm down =3 smoke a joint if you smoke lol xD relax sit down and put your headphone and close your eyes.

You'll feel a lot better and you'll stop worrying about everything for a moment and you'll find your way out of this -^^-

tehehehehe I love them!!! everybody is a little bit racist =3 -^^- weeeh Jipi send over all the folder of avenue Q!!!!

I've been worshiping miss Kassandra Leigh Purcel more then ever...why? because I can see the talent,the effort and the natural beauty she put in most of her work! I must also say that i idolize her for keeping her weight constant and putting so much effort in this! I wish I was more confident....aaaah...I wish my project won't fail me and that I'll be able to do something good of my talents too...

Yay I'm moving at the end of the month! and I'm starting my own enterprise!! I offer design,sewing,photos service!! and more =3 but I'm starting with that for now.

I'll miss my little incubus!!! ; ; i went one week away and i was dying to see him!!! now I'll have over 6hours of car between us ; ;

As for my weight...i did lost 5lbs....but gained it back...so i still haven't move from my 130lbs....my doctor is mad at me XD cause I'm supposed to be between 105lbs to 115lbs... XD mwouahaha...need to change my birth control pills...need to change my doctor too.... ; ; awww

I'll be living in a hole with 2 friends of mine and some other people i hate =_=''but we have no choice...

anyway...I should update my journal more often =3 usually i write all in Y!gallery.....lol XD

copy paste from my devart account cause I'm lazy

Oh god ..I don't remember if I already posted this in one of my journal but..I got fired from my job and school the same week and I still don't have my 4%...

My mom kicked me out of my house for good,I still have some belonging there but I have no more my keys and don't live in town so it's kinda hard to go get my things T_T''..

T_T the father of my fiance is always ''screaming'' on me on how I'm not useful and I must find a job...HEY I MOVED OUT OF TOWN I STILL DON'T EVEN KNOW MY WAY TO THE BUS STOP!!! gimme a second!

I lost all my drawings and the commission for someone...I was about to finish it! ewww now I must start over! again...

I'm so down now...I wish I could just find an apt that doesn't cost my eyes arms and legs! but I'm just dreaming...just finding a job is hard I think I'd accept any kind of commission right now V_V''(more info http://magias.deviantart.com/journal/10716277/ )
(note:shipping cost almost nothing for drawings and such but cost more for clothes lol )

Yesterday was simply AWFUL!!! I started my day like everyday...I went upstairs and *oups* fall over the dog's bed and hit the wall...After an hour I started to feel sick and puke from 11am to midnight with a headache...I could see the light cause it hurt me so much. I had a big fever and lost 6lbs in a days for not eating and puke!! I was scared and decided to eat at 1am,I felt a lot better...This morning I look like a total zombie so I had to put on a lot of make-up to hide it! and you know what? It worked! I receive a 50pieces make-up kit for my birthday =D I love it and all!!